Having A Dharlja Body

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I wish knowing about my other body actually gave me relief!  I think it actually gives me more frustration because when I am not manifesting things that I think I should be able to manifest or able to use the abilities that I know I have in my other body, I have very little patience with myself.  I feel like it should be making the path easier and then it pisses me off that it doesn't!  Plus the things that I do remember vividly from living in that way with other ascended people contrast so intensely with what happens here and that is hard to live with.  When I talk with people here about the fact there is another way to live some think "wouldn't that be nice", but it is mostly just an idea to them, they haven't glimpsed it internally or experienced it directly.  So they just think I am a dreamer or something.  But I remember enough of that life to recall how it feels, it is real to me and living here in this way can be excruciating.  I always have to remind myself it's temporary and I will get back or forward as the case may be to that true life